I read this note written by Leading Lady Tochi Eze, my friend, sister and personal person for whose headache I will joyfully take Panadol. hehehe :) That's Tochi speak, if you ever heard one!
Anyway, I read the note and I nodded hard till I felt my brains rattle in my head. You'll understand what I mean when you read it. 2012 is almost over...I rest my case.
|Tochi at a Selah Inspirational event|
Waiting for Isaac!
It's the 10th month of the year o, just incase you have not noticed, 2012 has almost finished! That's right; now is a good time to take stock and balance account...or perhaps for someone, now is your convenient time to panic!
Like seriously, what have I been doing?!!! Those were my thoughts three weeks ago; tucked away in my room, on a late saturday evening, sulking away in familiar despair, hanging out with demons of depression and almost enjoying their company. I have always been a dramatic melancholy, so it's always easy for me to paint dramatic pictures of doom in my head and fall into the lead role. Honestly, na Jesus dey slow me down!
What my problem was? Simple...Isaac. The Isaac matter. Relax; I'm sure you think I am talking about a Man...(You no see yourself) hehehe.
I had spent over 9 months waiting for Isaac and I couldn't stand the ambience of the waiting room any longer. I panicked!!! Isaac; the child of the promise! Isaac; the child of laughter, Isaac; the proof of my visitation, Isaac; the defiance of natural laws and human logic, Isaac; the assurance that I am not barren, Isaac; my seed of posterity!!!
My mind did a time travel, and I quickly recollected the boisterous excitement and thunderous applause as we all cheered on in the place of worship...The shepherd had just announced to us that 2012 was going to be our year of laughter. The congregation keyed in Faith, the expectation of the future was almost a physical cheque you could cash in a bank, and in the midst of tight hugs that threatened to squeeze the air out of your lungs and firm handshakes from the sweaty palms of strangers, I knew without a doubt, that 2012...I would bear Isaac!!!
So imagine my horror as the months went by, with friends testifying about the authentic reality of God's sure word...I began to feel like the blacksheep of the Christian family. (What; I told you I could be quite the melancholic).
But this is it! In the action movie of my negative thoughts, just as I was about to pull the trigger on the character I was playing in this self deluding script, just as I was going to write off myself and write off my year...I saw Light!!!
As in Nepa literally brought light. But the light that hit my bulb did not travel on it's own...It came with a certain measure of hope, It came with strength, clarity and a warm mushy feeling in the pit of my belly!!!
So it is this same hope that I have come to share with you...To live Life without Faith, without expectation is like going to bed at night without expecting the sun to rise in the morning. It is a certain death on it's own! To stand aloof in complacency and succumb your emotions to the events of chance as you physically see it is like embarking on a mission of self destruction.
Will a player disqualify himself from the match because he hasn't scored any goals? Do you stop your push-ups simply because you haven't seen the six packs yet? Even if you do, does it mean the muscles were not building underneath your skin?!
In truth, Isaac may seem like a distant echo, a vague memory, an idea lost in the sea of life, By this 10th month October, what has your Isaac become? Wishful thinking or a faint whisper? Have you moved on to more 'practical goals? Remember that Convenience has never been the path thread by Champions!!
Sweetheart, Ore mi, Beloved, Stranger or Stalker, Ndi otumokpo...feel free to categorize yourself! *hehehe (na joke o), Don't give up on God's promise...don't insult him with a filthy slap of unbelief. Even though there is nothing in your logical mind to prepare you for it, Isaac is going to come! You know why? Simple; God said so.
Life can really be that simple, we can go to bed resting on the pillow of God's promise...because no matter how long the night is and how loud the darkness makes her boast, morning will still come and the Sun will radiate brilliant glory...You know why?...Exactly! Because God said so!!!
I love you jare.
With 2 fingers in ah d air,
(C) Tochi Eze
Tochi is a writer, Author, Speaker and Social entrepreneur. She is the Chief Efficiency Officer at Selah Inspirational.
So, do you feel a little trepidation that the year zoomed past and now it's almost over? Then re-read Tochi's last paragraph. :)