Wow! If you're reading this what can I say? Happy New Year? *covers face*
Haven't been here in 2013 at all. A major life shift is to blame for it. Believe me. Slowly finding my feet by God's awesome grace.
I wrote this piece for Effectual Magazine as usual and thought to share.
My piece for Power Culture Magazine was also published last December. Please see it here.
So I've been thinking, have you ever felt like you had a promise from God but it's taking so long for you to see it? To experience that awesome promise that makes you lie awake at night smiling into the dark because God is just so awesome to be mindful of you?
Well here's a promise of a lifetime. I feel like I'm in Rebekah's shoes right now.
Try not to notice how many times I used the word awesome in this intro. I guess I just feel awesome :)
The pain in her heart grew as, in her mind’s eye, she watched her son walk off into the horizon for the thousandth time; his each step a testament to what she had done. It had been years since he left, many years since she started the wheel that had spiraled out of control. She had not set her eyes on her beloved son in all those years.
His future was uncertain as far as she knew. What was happening to him being so far away from all he had known? He was a simple man, gentle and easy going, how would he survive in the wilderness?
The decision that brought about their present situation had been a quick one. She didn’t plan it but she knew instantly what she had to do. Her husband had asked Esau to make him a special meal. He was going to give him the blessing.
It was such a big deal for her; for everyone. The father blesses the son and it is final. Final as in no one can ever change it. In their house, Jacob had to get the blessing. He just had to. That was the original plan wasn’t it? The older shall serve the younger?
Her mind traveled back to that day many years ago. She had tossed and turned all night, weary from the kicking. Her abdomen was large and highly distended. The discomfort was terrible. By morning she had had enough.
She went to the priest. She had to know what was going on with her. She had waited many years to have a child; the last thing she wanted was complications. Did every woman have it so hard? The priest surely must have something to tell her.
The answer was mind boggling. Not only was she about to have twins, some very amazing things were revealed about them.
Two nations are in your womb, and two peoples from within you will be separated; one people will be stronger than the other, and the older will serve the younger.
Now not only did she not personally know anyone who had had twins, she struggled to understand how she would cope with two children at once. And what did the older shall serve the younger mean? That sounded really odd.
Years later though, as the boys grew up, she slowly began to understand. Jacob in his smooth and gentle manner always had an edge over brash, burly Esau.
It didn't seem fair that she sort of preferred Jacob and his ways to Esau, after all they were both her sons, but Isaac’s special love for Esau kind of balanced things a little. They didn't seem like the perfect family but things were the way they were.
Now she wondered how Jacob was faring. Was the promise of being great already happening for him? Will it ever happen for him? The fulfillment of that word would certainly give her joy. Esau’s strange wives were making life difficult as it was; the last thing she wanted was some bad news about Jacob.
But she knew she had to trust. She had to believe that despite the pain she was feeling, the promise was certain.
See the smell of my son like the smell of a field the lord has blessed.
…the older shall serve the younger.
…the dew of heaven, the fatness of the earth, abundance of grain and wine.
She will trust, she will believe; Jacob will be great, even if she never saw him again.